am i stupid? or whatelse?

Tell me that i'm stupid!! or anything like that? please? oh god now i'm loosing someone who never be mine:< its hurt. its more than just word "hurt". He never be mine, but i love him so much. i know its freaky, but what now? i feel that:< i love him, he not. i hurt because of him, he didn't realize. i do jealous of him, he dont ever know. oh shit! this feeling so kill me slowly. i never feel love like that before.. and i don't want to feel it for twice. if ever he wonder, that he touch my soul.. yes he do. since i met him, i'm not the same. he bring life to everything i do. just the way you he hello, with one touch i can't let go.. oke, the matter is i love him so damn much, and he's have a girfriend;') whatdahell..